The Holy Hand Grenade

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2006-06-01T22:15:51Z

Man, I'm tired. I think it'll be naptime soon...

I'm quitting at the end of this week. <3 That makes me happy like I haven't been in a loooong time...I get paid this Friday and then have one more check coming in and that'll be it for that hell hole, and I'm done working in fast food. >< Never again...

So I was downloading a bunch of songs last night and felt like a tremendous nerd because of the kinds of songs I was downloading...namely Dream Street, Jesse McCartney, Ace of Base, and a few other that just make me sound like a really big pop geek when I'm really not. ^^;;

I finally got my friggin graduation announcements sent out, so hopefully I'll be getting some stuff soon...if this mail service forks them up, I'm gonna punch every single postperson in San diego. -.-

Scholarships and schoolwork and novel work and restaurant zaps Gurkin's brain...x.x I'm actually GETTING novel work done though, so I'm proud. My goal is to finish another chapter tonight. Among every other friggin thing...

I'mma go nap now. Hasta luego, amorcitos...

Free time in the morning, free time in the evening, freetime in summertime....

2006-05-09T13:39:32Z

I'm sitting around waiting to go to the bus, I'm tired and can feel a headache coming on but I want to go because I need as much practice for broadway as possible.

In Broadway Revue news, I have the opening solo for my class' number, Seize the Day XD. The other girl who was supposed to sing it (she had the idea to do the piece) couldn't sing loud enough for it, and so Ms. Friedrichs ended up giving the part to me. The scenario basically ran down like this:

Me: *sitting up front with all the other seniors, gazing around dazedly*
Friedrichs: Kurstin.
Me: *snaps out of it, looks over* Huh?
Friedrichs: Sing "Open the gates".
Me: *blinkblink* O..kay. *sings*
Friedrichs: *looks at choreographer* Do you like that better?
Choreogapher: Yeah, kinda...
Friedrichs: Gill, can you sing any louder than you already are?
Gill: No, I can't sing that low, that loud...
Friedrichs: Okay, then Kurstin you're singing it.
Me: O.O

Note how most of that conversation took place without my input. ^^;;

In other news, all my old friends are graduating like tomorrow and I'm still stuck in school for another month and a week ><. But I've still got prom and star testing is this thursday and friday, which means I don't have to be at school till like 10:30 on Thursday and 12 on Friday. *dances*

So, today's my mummy's birthday and we're throwing a surprise party...let's just hope she doesn't ruin it. ^^;;

having WAY too much fun with icons

2006-04-29T17:57:07Z

Oh well, I guess that's what happens when you know someone who is addicted to lj rp. XD

My new favorite movie is Pride and Prejudice...it makes me all mushygushy ^_^. Suki told me that they also made a movie of Sense and Sensibility, and I'm gonna see that too. But first I'm going to read the book, since I'm sure I'll enjoy it more than the movie. But I MUST see the movie, because Alan Rickman plays in it and we <3 him...

My novel is going spectacularly. I've received wonderful criticism from a lot of people, and it's a joy to write. I hope I can keep my mental and emotional stamina for long enough to complete this; it would be a shame to let all my hard work and inspiration just die.

I've been working on trying to find scholarships and everything, but I have to say I'm kind of hoping that I'll be able to publish my novel and thereby earning money that way. Who knows? Maybe I'll be the next Christopher Paolini. ^.~

Okay so this post was just an excuse to show off one of my new icons, so I'mma go write now..and mom's said we'll probably go to a bookstore too. *cheer*

<3333

Let's see how this goes...

2006-04-21T20:52:46Z

Comment with your name and:

1. I'll respond with something random I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll name something we should do together.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must (please maybe kinda) post this on your journal so you can do the same for other people

ninjas off Kim

2006-04-21T20:48:58Z

LAST PERSON WHO:____

の_Slept in your bed_ Nobody sleeps in my bed but me.
の_Saw you cry_ I don't remember...I don't like crying in front of people.
の_You shared a drink with_ I don't drink. Jeez, I sound like a hermit...
の_You went to the movies with_ Suki, Sammi, and Nicole...a while back, Memoirs of a Geisha. Yay for ninjaing in sushi to the theater. ^^
の_You went to the mall with_ My sister and my mom. I'm going again this weekend for my prom dress!
の_Yelled at you_ My brother cuz he's a dumbass
の_Sent you an email_ Some idiot from LSU

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO____ _ _

の_California_ Living there now.
の_Hawaii_ Yup, 'spretty sweet.
の_Mexico_ not yet
の_China_ I wish.
の_Canada_ Not interested.

HAVE YOU EVER____ _ _

☼ Wish you were the opposite sex: Hmm.....insatiable sexual appetite versus insatiable appetite for sweets...close one, but I'm happy being female.
☼ Had an imaginary friend: I don't remember, I should ask...
☼ Do you have a crush on someone: I've given up on crushes for now. (Thank God for spring break.)
☼ What book are you reading now: Not reading, I'm writing.

WHATS YOUR_____ _

♡ Worst feeling in the world_ Feeling helpless.
♡ Future son's name_ Vincent Michael or Dominic Gabriel.
♡ Future daughter's name_ Magdalene or Viviane.
♡ Do you sleep with stuffed animals_ Sleep with them? I can't sleep WITHOUT them.
♡ What's under your bed_ Surprisingly nothing, I don't have space enough. ^^;;
♡ Siblings_ A little sister and little brother.
♡ Location_ Currently California.
♡ College plans_ To quote Kim, "ELLESSHOU! *ahem* LSU"
♡ Piercings/tattoos_ Ears are pierced, and I might get a tattoo someday.
♡ Do you drink_ Nope, don't like the smell.
♡ Who is your best friend_ I can't say one person or everyone else will beat me up...
♡ Where do you want to get married_ No clue.

♡ Who do you really hate_ Myself sometimes, but no one usually.
♡ Been in Love_ I kind of want to say unfortunately, but yes I have.
♡ Do you drive_ Do I have to have a license to drive?
♡ Do you have a job_ Yes, it's hell.
♡ Do you like being around people_ If they're intelligent, sure.
♡ Are you for world peace_ World peace is an illusion dreamt up by idealists who can't face reality.
♡ Are you a health freak_ Not sure what that means.
♡ Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with?_ Yup...even though it sucked like nothing else, I still learned a lot from it.
♡ Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite/same sex did_ More times that I care to remember.
♡ Do you have a "type" of person you always go after_ I *wish*. If I did, I'd know who to avoid...
♡ Do you want to get married_ That'd be nice.
♡ Do you want kids_ dunno... Definitely, husband or not.

FAVORITE________________ _ _ ____ ___ _

♔ Room in house_ It depends on the day--lately it's been the second living room.
♔ Color_ Crimson
♔ Perfume or cologne_ Milk and Honey oil
♔ Month_ November I think...where autumn is showing but it's not quite freezing yet.
♔ Flower_ Between good-smelly roses and tiger lilies.

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU____ _

ン Cried_ Nope...but I made my brother cry.
ン Bought something_ Nope! *proud of self*
ン Met someone_ Don't think so
ン Missed someone_ My friends back home
ン Hugged someone_ My little schnookybear...aka little sister
ン Kissed someone_ Nope
ン Became shy around someone_ Don't think so.
ン Been to the diner_ No, I work in a restaurant.
ン Exercised_ The ellyptical is my best friend

1. Seven things to do before I die:

[x] Start an orphanage
[x] Have and raise four children
[x] Publish a book
[x] Become an OB/GYN
[x] Learn multiple languages (Spanish, French, Japanese, Chinese, Latin, and I don't know what else)
[x] Learn to accept people as they are and not try to change them
[x] Spread as much happiness and love as I can

2. Seven things I can not do:

[x] Blowdry my hair left-handed
[x] Keep fingernail polish on my nails for more than two days
[x] Get along with stupid people
[x] Play a musical instrument
[x] Sing first soprano
[x] Cry in front of people
[x] Drink alcohol cuz it smells nasty

3. Seven things I do ritualistically everyday:

[x] Get on the computer
[x] Check my sites
[x] Call my brother a moron
[x] Watch a movie
[x] Talk to God and my spirit guide
[x] Be sarcastic
[x] Hug almost everyone I run into

4. Seven things I say most often:

[x] Say what?
[x] Are you on crack?
[x] Ya friggin crack addict!
[x] WHORE!
[x] SKANK!
[x] GAYLORD!
[x] I win.

5. Seven books I love:

[x] Rhapsody trilogy (before it turned into a series, which SUCKS)
[x] Angelica
[x] Kushiel trilogy
[x] Dante's Inferno
[x] The DaVinci Code
[x] Harry Potter (4 particularly)
[x] Pride and Prejudice

6. Seven movies I watch over and over again (or would if I had the time):

[x] What Dreams May Come
[x] FFVII Advent Children
[x] The Mummy Returns
[x] The Wedding Date
[x] Emperor's New Groove
[x] Beauty and the Beast
[x] The DaVinci Code (so it's not out in theaters yet...shhh)

7. Seven people I hope do this meme as well (if they haven't done it already):

animefall
tarahime
suboshiyui
karotsamused
I don't remember my other friends...

So, I totally kicked my brother in the nuts yesterday. How unladylike of me. Oh well!

Foooooood tiiiiiime...

OMG PIMPCYCLE

2006-04-16T06:05:59Z

Advent Children is da shit, yo. :D *was totally lost on the central plot*

...so yeah, if anyone could explain to me what's up with Jenova and the whole disease thing, that'd be appreciated. ^^;;

But Tifa totally OWNED and Cloud has sexy eyebrows and a pimpcycle and Yuffie is so feminist and Vincent's all "Looka me and my swishicloakiness" and Reno thinks he's Spiderman...SO much love to this movie. ^_^

Methinks Sephiroth the Manwoman should get together with Peter Pan to make a remix of "You Can Fly", since Sephiroth must be thinking lots of happy thoughts to zip around the air like he does...

My sunburn is itchyyyyyy...><;; *whinetwitch*

Damn revisions o.<;

2006-04-09T05:39:48Z

I hate revisions. And here I was hoping that I'd be done with The Beginning (totally lame chapter title, but oh well) but I'm probably gonna have to make some big changes later. Oh well, I'm not gonna worry about it until I've got everything written that I want down.

Sunburn sucks. Swimming is fun though, and talking while swimming is fun too. So I'll do it more often...but with sunscreen.

Wow, I have a short attention span.

I'm done.

Holy crap this salad is effing HUGE

2006-03-28T04:21:49Z

So, I got back from DC yesterday. The verdict?

It RAWKED.

The flight there could have gone better; I fell asleep on the plane and since I'm sick my right ear went all funky and I couldn't hear out of it for two days because of all the congestion junk. The arrival was actually really efficient and we were out of the airport within twenty minutes and at hotel within 45. The hotel room was really nice--we had two double beds (ideal since we had 4 people) and it was a good size. We had a TV (which we never ended up using) and a desk where I set up my laptop. I didn't have internet connection, which sucked, but I wasn't ever sitting down long enough to accomplish anything anyway. Shortly after arriving and getting situated we got back on the bus to go to a restaurant that we thought was only 15 minutes away. In reality, it was actually an hour and a half away and by the time we got there we were all very hungry and cranky, especially Ms. Friedrichs and Jackson (our accompanist). Since we missed our reservation by like two hours we had to wait for thirty minutes before we could even be seated. (Apparently we weren't the only choir with the idea to eat there.) When we were finally allowed to eat, one of the (rather rude) waiters tried to force us to sit down and listen to directions on how to eat. The greatest part of this was that when the waiter tried to do this both Ms. Friedrichs and Jackson almost flipped out on him--I was laughing so much later because Jackson told my friends and I that he felt SO close to "just drop-kicking that guy's lard butt". So we ate and were merry and after this we had a little mini-night-tour of DC which no one was interested in because we were so tired, and then went back to the hotel and crashed.

Thursday we got up and went to Arlington Cemetery. We didn't stay there long enough to see everything but we saw things like the Women's Memorial, Kennedy's grave, and the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier. We saw the Changing of the Guard there and I got tons of pictures because all the architecture and scenery was just breathtaking. After Arlington we went to Georgetown University, drove around and then went to the actual Georgetown town, where we went shopping and ate lunch. I was looking for a belt because I forgot to bring mine, but I could only find those impractical fashion ones. The highlight of this shopping trip was when I realized I could fit into a size 10 jeans! I know pants run in different sizes but I was so thrilled when I fit into them (I didn't expect it at all) and I was squealing and practically dancing around the fitting room. After we left we headed up to Maryland where we saw a musical called "Thoroughly Modern Millie" which was just adorable. (And ont he way there I saw the building where the filmed The Exorcist!) I think that was one of my favorite things we did. After this we went back to the hotel and it wasn't too hard to fall asleep.

Friday we all got up at 5:15 because we had a tour at 7:30 of the White House. I can confidently say I was not the only one disappointed in this "tour". The entire level of the White House we saw looked purely fake and lasted only like 15 or 20 minutes after the huge amounts of security we had to pass through. I don't know if ANYONE enjoyed that trip. After the White House we went to the Library of Congress, which was one of my favorite sites to see. It was incredible! I took loads of pictures and it was awesome. Everything was amazing there and I wanted to buy a necklace from there but I didn't have the money. After this we went to Union Station and had lunch, which was fun but I don't think we were there long enough. When we were done eating we went to the headquarters of CSPAN, a political news station. No one enjoyed this either because it was so boring and the air conditioning was broken, so we were glad when we left. We went to the Supreme Court but didn't stick around because no one wanted to, but it was pretty and I got pictures. After this we went to the Capitol Building, which was the biggest waste of time. We waited at least an hour in line and getting through security and stuff only to sit down for three minutes in the House Chamber when they weren't in session. I was very irritated. After this we went to the Washington Monument, which was really neat. I got pictures from the base and from the top and everything, it's a fantastic view. After this we finally went back to the hotel, and boy were we glad for it.

Saturday we got up early to get ready for Festival. I've discovered that my hair looks really good curled, so I'm going to buy a curling iron when I get the chance and do it more often. It's gonna take a lot of practice though, cuz before I always had my roommate helping me. ;) We were the only choir to stay through the entire day and everyone's performances, and it was really neat. We were the first to sing so we saw everyone, and we decided that our chosen competition was a school from Georgia. The ironic thing was that later that night at the awards ceremony, two people from that choir had to sit at our table because they didn't have room anywhere else! But they were so nice and sweet and we had a great time talking to them. And the best part was that RB swept gold--Women's (my choir) and Madrigals both got Gold 1st and then we got the combined points award cuz our totaled score was higher than anyone else's. So we left with two plaques and a big trophy to adorn the choir room. ;) After the awards ceremony was the dance, and we rocked out--not only us, but Ms. Friedrichs and Jackson too! I have some HILARIOUS pictures that I fully intend to show her. I didn't stay for the whole dance, but I had a blast and it was awesome.

Sunday we got up and went to the National Archives, which was okay but not overly fascinating. I got pictures of the Magna Carta, the Declaration of Independence, the Constitution, and the Bill of Rights. After this we went to The Mall, where we saw the Vietnam, Korean, Lincoln, WWII, and Jefferson Memorials. I got lots of pictures and it was really interesting. We had lunch and then headed to the airport to go home. The flight back was much better than the flight there because I didn't fall asleep, which gave me the opportunity to finish my revisions and get opinions on my writing from some friends of mine.

All in all, I had a wonderful time. I'm going to make a scrapbook of it and keep it forever. It's awesome to be able to say, "My senior year I flew across the country for a national choir competition and we swept gold." I'm so proud and happy! :) It's definitely the highlight of my year so far.

Now I've got a lot of people interested in my story and have been ordained as an awesome critic, so I'm very excited for now. Things are looking up again and I'm thrilled!

Anyway, so I'm extremely jetlagged and almost done with dinner. I've gotta wash clothes and then I'm off to bed so love to all and ciao!

>

2006-03-16T00:04:54Z

I don't want to go to work.

Um...yeah. I want a PDA. And the House season. And Grey's Anatomy. And oh so many other things.

I haven't lost anymore weight. *damns laziness* But I haven't gained it back either. *shrug*

Alex is still a fucktard, I'm still not over him, and I am back to an astounding love life of ZERO interests. :D

HOWEVER! I have not been entirely unproductive. I have been writing like a maniac and am about to pop out some fresh stuff for those of you who care. I think this may be the first to be sent for publishing...

Drivers License Todaaaaaaaaaay

2006-02-14T00:39:45Z

200. middle name is: Victoria

199. born on: 7/15

198. I am a(n): I'll let you know when I do

196. eye color: brown-black

195. shoe size: 9 wide

194. My ring size is: No clue...don't want to know ><

192. My height is: around 5'5.

191. I am allergic to: Nada

190. I live in: >.> <.< XP

189. The last book I read: Angels and Demons by Dan Brown (not nearly as good as The DaVinci Code)

188. My bed is: covered in blankets, particularly some really geeky ones

187. One thing I know for sure about the opposite sex: a lot of them deserve to be shot in the ass

186. I am glad I'm my sex because: Because I don't have the innate stupidity that comes with a penis. :P

179. My favorite Holiday is: Well my LEAST favorite is Valentines Day...but my most favorite is probably Christmas.

178. The perfect kiss: each to her own, there are a lot of them out there...personally I like the whole hollywood kiss idea, being wrapped in his arms and having a deep passionate kiss

177. The last three cd's I bought are: does it count that someone bought them for me? if so then "Can't Take me Home", "Matrix Reloaded", and "Coyote Ugly"

176. Last song that made me cry was: "There Goes My Life"

172. My most treasured possession(s) is(are): You're asking a pack-rat this question?

170. What did you do last night: Watched a KICKASS episode of Grey's Anatomy, talked to James (<3) and did my current event for Econ

167. My skin's reaction to the sun is (tan/burn): Burn then tan

:::::I Do/Do Not Believe In:::::

143. Santa: Not since I was 9

142. love at first sight: I reeeeeally doubt it

141. Luck: Eh...I talk about luck like I believe in it, but I think almost everything that happens to us is a consequence of our actions.

140. Fate: Only if I've decided it.

139. God: Si senora!

138. Aliens: To quote from Contact: "If you think about it, if we're the only ones here then the Universe is an awfully big waste of space."

137. Heaven: Yupyup

136. Hell: It's called my high school

135. Ghosts: Souls, but not ghosts.

134. Horoscopes: Heehee those are fun...usually have me pegged right but I don't believe in them.

135. Soulmates: Multiple soulmates yes.

:::::Which is Better?:::::

129. Hugs or Kisses?: Hugs.

128. Drunk or High: Hmmm...I dunno, which way would you rather die?

127. phone or online: It depends what I'm talking about

128. Red heads or Black hair?: Um. Red. Duh. *points to red hair*

125. Blondes or Brunettes?: I like my dirty blonde myself...but if forced to choose I'd say brunette.

120. Night or Day: Night. So much more beautiful than in the day.

119. Oranges or Apples: Apples all the way. I hate oranges.

118. Curly or Straight hair: Either

:::::Here's What I Think About:::::

116. Abortion: I hate it and I wish it could be outlawed but I know it'd be messy.

115. Backstabbers: Shitfaced cowards. I could mention a certain stupid person that might happen across this journal, but I won't...

114. Parents: You mean those two adults who roam across my house? What about them?

110. School: Depends on the day. Boring and stupid a lot of the time, but fun with my friends.

::::Last time I::::

103. Kissed someone: Actually kissed? Eh...probably back in May sometime.

102. Last time i hugged someone: probably Friday

101. Seen someone I haven't seen n a while: Back in November when I flew home to see all my buddies ^^

99. Grew: I have NO clue

::::MISC::::

90. Who's the ditziest person you know: Tiff. Hands down.

89. Who makes you laugh the most: Dane Cook

87. One thing I'm pissed about right now is: The effing DMV being retarded AGAIN

83. The last movie I saw in the theater was: Either Underworld 2 or Memoirs of a Geisha, can't remember.

82. The thing I don't understand is: People caring more about money or things than other people

80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever recieved: And your point is?

79. The one thing I love about the opposite sex is: The smell. Oh god, the pheromones. <3

76. This summer I am: Moving back to Baton Rouge for college, bitches. ^_^

75. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: This isn't home, but when I leave I'll miss my friends.

74. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: Seeing all my old friends again and starting new. Making new friends and such.

73. Tomorrow: It's Valentines Day. It's gonna SUCK.

72. Today: CLEAN.

71. Next Summer: Comic-Con, bitches.

70. Next Week: Anything but sit around.

67. People call me: Gurkin, Coppertop, a few other things I can't remember

64. The person I have been good friends with the longest: That has to be Chris. Mucho <3s to the Chris. ^^

62. The person who knows the most about me: I dunno, I don't really hide anything so a lot of people know stuff about me. ^^;;

61. The person that can read me the best is: No one's really nailed it yet, but probably Shannon

60. The most difficult thing to do is: Keeping my patience with stupid people

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: Not driving yet...*curses the DMV*

58. I have the following siblings: If you know me you know the little brats.

56. My zodiac sign is: Cancer. I'm an effing crab...wtf?

55. The first person I thought I was, but wasn't in love with was: Ryan.

53. The one person who can't hide things from me: I don't know, I'm pretty good at reading most people

51. Right now I am talking to: Turtle...and he's not talking

48. I have/will get a job at: Hell. Ahem, I mean Samurai Sam's.

47. I have these pets: None right now, but I want a rat, a Corgie, a cat, or a chinchilla.

45. The worst sound in the world: Nails/metal on paper, the sound of the words "panties" and "Ophelia" *twitch*

44. The person that makes me cry the most is: Eh...I don't cry a lot but it's probably been Alex.

39. My boy/girlfriend: None now, but DAMN I wish James would give it a shot with me...

35. Florida or Hawaii: Hawaii. I've lived in Florida already.

33. My favorite piece of clothing is: My supergeeky Harry Potter jacket and my trench coat ^^

32. My favorite sport to watch is: I dunno, it depends on my mood

31. Last time I cried: This morning when my dad was telling me how proud he is of me.

28. The school I go to is: Shit.

27. Last person I got pissed at: Suki.

26. My worst drinking experience was: Never drank, don't have one.

22. The all-time best movie is: You're asking me to CHOOSE?! I do <3s me some Dogma though...

21. The all-time best thing in the world is: Cheesy, but looooooove baby

19. The most annoying thing ever is: Stupidity/rudeness

18. The most annoying person you know is: That's really difficult to say...

17. I lose all respect for people who: Cheat on their lovers or disrespect others

11. The worst pain I was ever in was: When I pulled a muscle in my back and had a stomach bug at the same time. Don't EVER do that.

10. My favorite phrase: "Come meet me in the lobby, I'll be the one stabbing jaws."

9. My room: Is like a church...only funner

8. My favorite celebrity is: I <3 Alan Rickman and Keanu Reeves and Anthony Hopkins and Angelina Jolie and someone else I can't remember

5. My weakness is: Dark chocolate. Anything else is WEAAAAK.

4. What turns me on: Kisses on my neck and shoulders. Hot damn. ^^

3. Who broke your heart: Alex

2. I filled out 200 questions because: I'm a quiz/survey whore

1. What do you regret most: Wasting my time feeling sorry for myself instead of forging my own and others' happiness.

I'm a coppertop now ^_^

2006-02-11T17:52:26Z

<td align="center"> Kurstin --
[noun]:

An immortal

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

I'm GOD, bitches! *supergodvoice*

<td align="center">Your walk is:
Crazy

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

Hehe. ^_^ I have an almost-Jack-Sparrow walk...

So, I was trying to get my hair back to blonde and now it's more like a metallic copper color...pretty cool, but doesn't go fabulously with my complexion so I'm gonna go back to Suki's tomorrow to try again. (Damn color and hair conspiring against me...><) Anyway, work soon...all effing DAY...and then dad's dinner afterward cuz it's his birthday! ^^

So the DMV is retarded

2006-02-08T16:15:36Z

I still don't have my license. I WOULD have had it if the DMV hadn't been stupid and decided to close down all driving tests because there's construction going on in the parking lot...(I have NO clue how I got this thought in my head, but I somehow believed we'd be going OUTSIDE the parking lot for the test...go figure.) So I'm going to another DMV on Monday to guilt trip them into letting me take my test then because you usually have to have an appointment. (Dad wants me to have my license before he deploys next Wednesday.)

I'm starting to feel the hints of depression I always get before my dad leaves. I don't know when he's gonna get back...I kind of hope that it will be in time to help me move into college, but of course things never work out like that. I think he's the only one I'll really miss when I leave.

I have work today and tomorrow, but Friday off. I think I'm really starting to like this whole Fridays off thing. It's been months since I've had one, but it's wonderful for just winding down. This Friday I'm hoping to go have sushi with Turtle but because I don't have my effing license I may not be able to convince mom to drive me. >< He sent me the best song as a sweet gesture. It's called "Pretty Baby". Listen to it and you'll know why he sent it and how sweet it is. ^^

Turtle asked me out the other day. I was really flattered and I know he's a great guy but I just don't feel that way about him. We're going to be good friends, which I think will end up suiting us both better instead. (He calls me gorgeous...^_^) I've lost 10 lbs, and I'm working hard. (I slacked a bit but I'm getting back on track.) I go to kickboxing and yoga and do cardio almost every day even though I don't actually work out every day. I'm feeling an improvement...I feel better, healthier, and so I'm really happy. I also seem to be getting more attention lately, which I'm not arguing against. :D I definitely feel more confident, which I'm sure has something to do with the attention thing but not the point. By prom I'm gonna be a HOTTIE. ^_^

Choir is AMAZING. All the girls are so good and put so much effort, and I know we're gonna kick ASS in Washington. We may even get to sing for the President! If we do I hope I can meet him, if only so I can give my dad an introduction before he gets there. ;D That way when the President climbs into the plane/helicopter he can ask, "Is there a Major Strange here?" and my dad can pipe up and it'll be all cool and stuff. ^_^ I get paid Friday and I'll use that money to finish paying off the rest of the fees for my trip. I also need to remember to bring money for the outside fees and my choir dress.

Anyway I've got a few things to do...*sitting around during 1st period off* Might as well get a head start. Ciao lovies! <3

Too tired to do anything but take quizzes

2006-02-02T23:01:24Z

- You Are The Champion

"Don't worry, I got it."

You play as the Hero. You are the one who usually

tries to take on the world for any cause you

believe in. You are a natural leader in most

circles and are not afraid to take that

position if a situation calls for it. Others

look to you for inspiration and praise you

for your acheivements. Even though they love

and adore you, however, you are left feeling

alone or overwhelmed many times. You're

almost always positive and keep your chin up

despite any setbacks because you know that

you will succeed in the end, no matter how

long it takes.

Which Classic Story Role Do You Play?
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Sweeeeeeeeet. ^_^ I'm good.

And tired. z.z *doesn't want to go to work*

I'm feelin like a chicken

2006-01-27T19:52:49Z

That almost rhymed...

Anyway. Blegh. Stupid butterflies. I should be getting my license today...and I have a good reason to, since now I'VE GOT A CAR. ^___^ My parents agreed to give me the Envoy because they said I'm the good kid and they've never had problems with me, and they're super proud. So once I get my license, I'm free to drive and do whatever I want so long as I let them know beforehand. ^^ Finally, this whole "good child" thing is paying off. *rejoice!*

I'm nervous about my driving test. I absolutely don't want to fail, but my last instructor instilled this terror in me of automatic fails, so I'm scared...AND he had stinky breath, so that made it even worse. >< I just have to keep my composure I guess....thank God there's no freeway driving or I'd start hyperventilating and then the instructor would be like "YOU FAAAAAAAAILLLLL" and I'd cry. ^^;; To warm me up to driving my mom's gonna let me drive to the base today, which I guess is good because once I start driving I'm gonna be down there two or three times a week using a personal trainer, which I found out help you for free at the base gym. And I figure I'll be running errands for mom too.

I finished The DaVinci Code. ROCKIN BOOK. Well, it is if you're moderately feminist and adore religion. After reading it I can see how there's a bunch of convtroversy over the making of it into a movie, but I'm gonna be first in line to see it opening night. ^^ I hope they do it justice.

So, some awesome things have been happening to me in succession over the last few days: I got a $1000 scholarship for being a smart college Freshie, my parents decide that since I'm the good, smart kid they're giving me a car for my graduation present, my vice principal calls me into the office to ask me to tutor kids for as one of my classes cuz my GPA's really good, and then I make it into Honors College at LSU even though I missed the deadline. ^_^ I think Mercutio felt bad for my shitty week last week and is making up for it now. I <3 my phantom stalker/guardian angel.

Oops...I think I was supposed to be ready to go by now. o.o;; Byee!

I <3 Chris

2006-01-25T16:06:39Z

He's one of the few people that I can honestly say keep me grounded. He's one of my oldest friends and I think when I finally get something published I'm gonna dedicate it to him and Sempai. I love those two to death. (Even though they're myspace whores. XP)

I was freaking out last night at the unfairness of life, because Kayleigh's stepdad doesn't have to go to Iraq while mine does. According to Shannon she'd been bitching about it before sometime, and Shannon just wanted to pipe up and say, "Oh suck it up, stupid! Gurkin's dad had to deploy too but she took it like a man!" I wish she had. It would have made my day. Something that would also make my day would be someone walking straight up to her and slapping her right across the face. That would make my *week*.

I'm not getting a personal trainer right now because it's astronomically expensive and I have to finish off paying for my trip to DC, so I'll just be on my own working out for a while. I think I'll make like a three-day workout plan that I'll go by so I can go to the gym and work out almost every day (except thursday and friday). But I have lost about 8 pounds, so I'm thrilled. At two pounds per week from here to may (Prom), I'll have probably lost around 30 more pounds. That will THRILL me. Who knows, maybe by then I'll be a redheaded barbie, like Sammi says. :P She says when I thin up I'm gonna be a hottie, and she says even SHE will want to rape me. ^^ I <3 Sammi.

Today is a Sushi day. ^_^ Suki, Sammi, Nicole, and I are going to the plaza to get Sushi to go and sneaking it into the theater to watch Memoirs of a Geisha because we all want to see it. It should be fun at the least, and I'll get back home in time to go to my pilates class at 7:00. :D

Screw that dipshit I've been in love with. He hasn't treated me anywhere near right since I met him, and I'm fed up. I've waited and persevered, and probably wasted 10 months of my life hoping for a chance with him, but I'm done with that crap now. Now that I'm getting more self-confidence and am starting to look better, I know I'll find someone who will care about me and treat me the way I deserve to be treated. If he recognizes his mistake and comes crawling back, then all the more pleasure in revenge for me. I'll relish turning him down.

I think I'm gonna change my name to Alex in college...not sure yet though. Not legally, just go by it. I just like it. ^^

Gurkin's Quote of the Day: "Or maybe I'll attach a pinecone to my vibrator and have a REALLY merry Christmas!" -Bobbi, The Stepford Wives

Every Woman Has the Exact Love Life She Wants

2006-01-21T16:19:53Z

^ Directly quoted from the fahbulous movie "The Wedding Date", which is fahbulous if only because there's a manhooker in it. The main girl is stupid but her cousin kicks ass because she's crude and British and smokes her ex-fiance all the time. Goooooood movie...if you haven't seen it, you should.

So, back to the quote. I think I believe that. So I'm going to try to apply it to my life currently. Do I *want* to be in love? Of course. It's a very nice feeling to be in love. What's not so nice is being in love with a shallow self-concerned ass who doesn't think about what he says before he says it. A few excerpts from a conversation we had the other day:

Me: I learned how to talk in front of you after I realized I had no chance with you.
Him: How do you know?
Me: Know what?
Him: That you have no chance with me.
Me: Because you told me.
Him: Things change. Now all you have to do is decide whether or not I'm screwing with you.
Me: Yeah, I was just about to ask whether or not something had actually changed or if you were just being an asshole and toying with my feelings.
Him: Sorry, I'm in a cruel mood tonight.
Me: Well I'm sorry, but I'd appreciate it if you didn't take that out on someone who cares about you.

Me: Mom thinks I can get down to a size 8 easily. So, size 8, DD boobs, nice face, down-to-earth personality...I should have a chance with a couple of decent guys.
Him: *tries not to drool*
Me: lmao
Him: See, it's saying shit like that that makes me wonder if I was so smart to...And that makes me sound really shallow.
Me: You mean turn me down?
Him: Yeah.

Being that this all occurred in the same conversation, I think he was probably feeling like a shallow asshole for the rest of the night. Which I guess is good because, as Sammi and I said, "If he hadn't thought about it before, he's certainly thinking about it now!"

I've lost about 6 or 7 pounds, and my pants are getting to the point where I need to wear a belt with them so they won't fall down. I think I would have lost more weight if I hadn't been a lazyass and had worked out more, but now I have a membership to LA Fitness so I'm gonna end up taking Kickboxing on Monday, Yoga on Tuesday, and Pilates on Wednesday, then on Saturday and Sunday just going to work out. (Thursday and Friday I work, and I do NOT feel like working out after work.)

Anyway, I think I should get going. I have an appointment with a personal trainer to show me around the gym at 9:00 and I've got to get ready. (No, I don't get my own personal trainer, I just get one free appointment because we just signed up.) Watch me get the creepy guy that's always coming to the restaurant...><

Quote of the Day: "Man...you BURNED his ass!" --Sammi (after hearing the aforementioned conversation)

Jack Sparrow voice That's interesting...

2006-01-15T04:25:26Z

The Picto-Personality Test

You are a person who lives in the moment and is passionate about whatever and whoever you love.

When alone, you are introspective. You constantly reflect on your life and the world.

You are adventurous, always up to do the most extreme things. You have a certain recklessness that makes people very attracted to you.

In the future you will have a good family life and lots of friends.

Take this Test at QuizGalaxy.com

Yay for a bright looking future. ^^ It sounds about right to me...

You fit in with:
Taoism

Your ideals mostly resemble those of the Taoist faith. Spirituality is the most important thing in your life. You strive to live by all of your ideals, and live a very intellectually focused life.

100% spiritual.
20% reason-oriented.

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Hehe I don't even know what Taoism is...^^

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Your arch-nemesis is:	The godfather

Why?	Because they stole your screenplay and pawned it off as one of their own
The winner will be...	It’s a tie
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That's because I'm the GodSISTAH yo

Your Social Dysfunction:
Happy

You're a happy person - you have a good amount of self-esteem, and are socially healthy. While this isn't a social dysfunction per se, you're definitely not normal. Consider yourself lucky: you walk that fine line between 'normal' and being outright narcissistic. You're rare - which is something else to be happy about.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Please note that we aren't, nor do we claim to be, psychologists. This quiz is for fun and entertainment only. Try not to freak out about your results.

Happy? What a peculiar thought...but maybe true. ^^

Oooh...I wanna see Take the Lead. ^^ I'm already gonna see Memoirs of a Geisha on Monday with Sammi and then I'll drag Alex to Underworld with me, maybe I'll ask Nicole to see Tristan and Isolde with me if she's interested...

I should have gotten my license today, but the automatic's in the shop and there's no way in hell I'm taking the standard to my driving test. So hopefully it'll be fixed soon, and I'll have my license before long...

Time to go work out and shower and write and paint my nails and watch Wedding Crashers cuz I heart that movie

lovelovelovelovelovelovelove!

yaaaaaaaawncollapse

2006-01-12T23:08:25Z

So, what's going on with me lately in a nutshell...

Almost finals. Oober fabulous...at least I don't work that week. -.-

Dieting and dropping weight fairly quickly. <3

Not wanting to be here and wanting to graduate.

Looking forward to my next-to-nothing schedule next semester. <333

Having relapses of unrequited love again.

Life is grand.

Yaaaaaay really early Christmas!

2005-12-16T05:11:05Z

So, since we're driving down to Louisiana on Saturday, we got to open our presents early. My list of gifts is long and blissful:

Movies-
The Mists of Avalon
Constantine
Gladiator
Animatrix
Shrek 2
The Mummy Returns
The Core
Man in the Iron Mask
The Devil's Advocate

CDs-
Pink (Can't Take Me Home)
Enya (Amarantine)
The Matrix Reloaded Soundtrack
Coyote Ugly Soundtrack

Books-
Lady of Avalon
Song in the Silence
Redeeming the Lost (FINALLYYYYYYYYYY!!!!)
Starman (I think I've finally ended my years-long boycott of the books for their stupid main character.)

So, I'm totally <3ing on my parents right now...I got the majority of the stuff on my "Stuff I Want" List, with the exception of the disney movies and a couple of other things. But hey, that's what having a job is for...so I'll be sure to buy my own stuff that I didn't get before, which includes:

The Emperor's New Groove
Beauty and the Beast (Which I actually have downloaded but will delete once I get the dvd.)
King Arthur
The Replacements
Braveheart
Underworld
Dogma (I have a copy but I need a new one cuz mine's scratched.)
A couple of random CD's, including Spice Girls, Ozone, and Reel Big Fish
A gamer lovesac, which I absolutely intend to buy and bring to college

Anyway, sis is wanting to hijack Jenny to download music onto her new mp3 player, so I'mma go help her with that. Ciao!

Oh. Em. Gee.

2005-12-07T14:31:06Z

I now officially have a Goblet of Fire poster signed by Daniel Radcliffe (Harry), Rupert Grint (Ron), Emma Watson (Hermione), Alan Rickman (Snape), Gary Oldman (Sirius), Maggie Smith (McGonagall), and Ralph Fiennes (Voldemort). I'm framing it and it's going on my wall forever.

I. Love. Tiffany. <333333333333

I can't feel my feet...

2005-11-29T04:24:29Z

So, it's cold...this morning I woke up and was frickin freezin so I peeked out from under my blanket and turned the fan off and picked up the hairdryer (which I have conveniently located beside my bed for just such occasions), stuck it under my blanket and left it there for like 30 minutes until I started to sweat, at which point I felt slightly more comfortable about getting up. I had to shower this morning though which sucked because then I got cold again, but I closed the doors to my vanity (there's two--one leading outside, and the other to the bath part of the bathroom), sat the hairdryer on the counter and turned it on until it warmed up in there while I got dressed and ready for school. I was wearing my jacket all day because my shirt was thin and uncomfortably cold...you can tell it's really starting to become winter here, finally.

Thanksgiving break is over, and I can tell I'm gonna be a busy little Gurkin for the next three weeks. We get our progress reports sometime this week I think, but I'm kinda scared because my math grade is gonna show up as a C even though I'm sure it's not a C anymore...or won't be, after my homework is completely turned in and I take my test tomorrow. (Ick...test >< at least I know what to do on this one.) I have to make sure to bring all my grades up to A's and B's which means actual effort and studying, and then I also have my SAT this weekend. MUCHO studying for that...mostly vocab though, and reviewing all the old algebra terms that I've forgotten by now. I have to make a 2100 so dad will pay me the money I paid for my laptop....that and I know I can do better than an 1840. I also have a major choir performance on December 13th, so I have three rehearsals for that...the downside is that I have to miss a half hour of my character design class twice in a row, and tomorrow (which is a rehearsal) we're having a surprise birthday party for Mez, so it makes me sad I have to miss some of it...

I've been studying Kabbalah for the last couple of days, and I find it very intriguing...granted, this is Kabbalah for women, more of self-help book than anything, but it is definitely enlightening and I'm taking positive steps to improvement. After finishing with Kabbalah I plan to study the Qu'ran and after that, probably on to Judaism or Buddhism.

I think the most important thing I've read and learned from the book I'm reading is that I'm here to improve, to work on correcting and perfecting myself. I know I'll never be perfect, but I can definitely become better than I am. I'm not here to criticize others, or to point out their flaws and imperfections. Everyone who enters my life is here to teach me something--a lesson in friendship or betrayal, patience or love. It's very helpful to think of things that way...even in a negative situation, now I know to look at it from the point of view of "What am I supposed to learn from this?" To take criticism as help, that almost everything someone says to me, cruel or kind, has some kind of basis and if I can use it to improve myself then do so. So on that note, I would like to ask you guys: What negative aspects about me do you think I would do well to work on and change? I would like to hear it from my friends, because I know that even though I love you guys dearly, you see the worst side of me. And I know that whatever you say to me will be out of love because you care about me.

Anyway, so I know this hasn't been a very fun or happy entry but I expect I'll have some of those soon. Love to you all! ^_^ <3333

gurkin @ 2005-11-24T09:52:00

2005-11-24T17:57:57Z

Merry Turkey Day everyone!

I called a few of you yesterday who I know won't read this or who don't know already that I silently wish everyone a Merry Turkey day, but to those of you I didn't call, here you go!

I'm thankful for all of you, especially Shannon and Kim and Chris, who have been there for me longest and through my bouts of bitchiness remain around. I'm thankful for my job and my health and my distant family (because I don't really have a very close-knit family here). I could continue listing things, but that would require more typing and probably getting yelled at by dad because I should be drying/doing my hair. But anyway, the main point of this post--thanks to all of you guys, I love you, and I hope you have a FABULOUS Turkey Day.

gurkin @ 2005-11-19T20:31:00

2005-11-20T04:41:48Z

Okay, so I was totally gonna post about a bunch of ranty fan-girly Harry Potter type stuff, but my entire post was just deleted with an accidental press of a key so I'm just gonna give up and say the movie kicks ass and everyone should see it and Ron's a hottie and I love Durmstrang best.

The End!

(I'm going to grammar hell for my run-ons.)

gurkin @ 2005-11-18T21:06:00

2005-11-19T05:06:39Z

Hell YEAH

2005-11-19T04:50:29Z

You're a Slytherdor! You are a natural leader and
have the personality to back it up. Often
people are hesitant to approach you because
they feel that you will reject them. You have a
bit of a temper but most of the time you're
able to keep it in check; however when you are
really pissed off, people better watch out. In
your life you have a lot of things you want to
accomplish, whether it's for yourself or
another cause. You can be determined in trying
to pursue this goal but your morals are too
steady to allow you to be absolutely ruthless.
You don't let many people know this, but you
actually like the idea of chivalry (but you try
to keep this buried) and you try to live your
life with honor. You don't back away from tough
decisions. Your weakness is that sometimes you
can be arrogant, you forget about the 'lesser
people' and this leads you to underestimate
your opponents. With the charisma of a
Gryffindor and the ambition of a Slytherin you
can be great in life!

Which Mix of the Hogwarts Houses are You?
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How did I know THIS one was coming? ^_^ Squee.

*sings* Goblet of Fire tomorrooooow...

Yaaaay paycheck!